I am far too naive. I assume everyone else is as innocent as I am and that is why I get taken advantage of and hurt so often.
I’m sitting here alone, in the dark, finding out just what it feels like to have my heart feel like it’s actually falling out of my chest. It feels like the first time I’ve ever hurt like this. How can that even be possible? How can I walk away from a husband with no damage, but I can’t deal with the pain being causes by having everything you want right in front of you but not being able to have it?
Whatever it is, I will get through it. I’ve had a lot of things thrown at me and I’m strong and handle it well, and with grace. I turn things around very quickly and I land on my feet no matter how shaken up my world gets. I’m a tough chick. And at least I’m still hot.
I always smile and that goes a long way with people down here. I’m a sweetheart.
I’m the most honest and unselfish person you’ve ever met.
I’m awesome. People love me.
These are all of the nice things people said about me today. Why do I still feel the way I do?
I’m Robyn and I’m falling apart on the inside, while I effortlessly hold the outside together with grace and poise. And I still make other people happy in the meantime.
Things I love.
Tights
Bracelets
Big rings
Boots
Scarves
Rivers
Carrots
Rats
Snakes
Turtles
Coffee (x4679642)
Glass
Tattoos
Sarcasm
Honesty
Honey
Friendship
Gluten free pretzels
Rice kirispies treats
Halloween
Graveyards
Chocolate almond milk
Sincerity
Holding hands
Autumn
Sunshine
Bananas
Optimism
Making lists
Photographs
Polaroids
Grammar
Getting o know people
Sunsets
Sunrises
Porcupines
Curtains
Birch trees
Kittens
Freshly cut grass
Long dirt roads
Foreign languages
The sky
The stars
Feelings
Goldfish
Knowing who I am
Big windows
Family
Good news
Eye contact
Smiling!!!
Pet stores
Long earrings
Piercings
Open-minded people
Clouds
Large rocks
Hiking
Crisp weather
Children
Babies!!
People that appreciate me
Cleaning
Being organized
Washing windows
Singing
Bluegrass
Apples
Farms
Bird feeders
Plants that I don’t have to take care of
People that want to get to know me
Railroad tracks
Trains
Planes
Airports at sunrise
Traveling
Lakes
Architecture
Graffiti
Color
Sun catchers
Dream catchers
90’s music
Laughing
Sleeping in
Incense
Books
Yarn
Knitting
Paper
Rugs
Grocery stores
Shopping
Exploring
Curiosity
Lamps
Records
Thrift stores
Sweaters
Cooking
This list is not exhaustive.
Confessions
I’m addicted to coffee, sugar and cigarettes.
I don’t really know who I am.
I’m falling in love, and it hurts.
I never thought I would be here.
I’m always obscure, because I’m always secretly looking for someone that is interested enough to figure it out.
I don’t lie anymore; at least not to anyone but myself.
I am not really special.
I am beautiful on the inside and the outside.
I will make you happy, as long as you let me- no matter who you are.
